Monday, February 28, 2011
Was I born this way?
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Pending War
- Marketing & Management ( Conquest of the Field of Business)
- Language & Knowledge ( Battle of English)
- Culture & Performance ( Challenge of Arts)
- Introduction to Psychology ( Day of the Psyche)
- Statistics ( Rebellion of Numbers)
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I remember
As I strolled down memory lane, I remember you
I remember the time when I could call you my own. It was the sweetest words I knew under all the circumstances. All those family problems and loneliness I could ignore because I had you. Every time I heard your voice, I felt joy and happiness. It had been a long time since I experienced that feelings. We were apart but our trust held us together. Distance was a factor but every time I saw you via cam, I would smile. You were the best I had and I was absolutely thankful for that.
Then came the day I went to see you face-to-face. I sat anxiously on the plane, waiting for it to land. You were frantically searching for the right airport to wait for me. Thank God the plane delayed because you arrived just in time. I saw you outside of the terminal, searching around for my presence. Without hesitation, I ran towards you as I dragged my luggage. The moment was picture perfect.
We laughed. We cried. We argued. We reconciled for the next few days. Then I had to go back to go the dreaded place but we knew we would be strong. Passed the guards, I couldn't hold it back for I couldn't feel your touch any longer. Tears dropped. It was the first time I felt hurt for you remained here and I had to go.
Then came again the time I visited you. But our love was inhibited by external forces. I endured till the moment I could hold your hands again. Sadly, I broke your heart. Our trust broke. You left. I tried to chase you back. Yet, I was left alone to cry in the dark. Whatever I believed in all fell apart. We were apart once again - for real.
As I poured my feelings out into this post, I realized I am a changed person now. Whether for the best or worst, I'm not sure. I don't know when will I feel that particular moment again. When you awaited in the airport for my arrival and we embraced for the first time, regardless of who were watching us. Guessed some parts of me still dwell in that moment. Looping until the day I die. A pain I need to endure everyday.
What I have for you now is neutral. Because I hurt you, you hurt me. Again, I apologized for what I did. Sometimes, I wondered what would happen if I didn't commit the mistake that changed our lives.
This is a crude video. I am a lousy cameraman. I laugh at it all the time. Even if you did hurt me excruciatingly, you were my best love ever. I wouldn't change it for anything.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Sinful Sinner
Croft is a lazy bump who personifies my sloth. Croft is a harmless fellow since he barely does anything. However, his friends are usually sick of his laziness as they couldn’t rely on him to finish a group project. His favourite hobby is snoozing or thinking about absolutely nothing as he lies on his bed hugging his soft toy. But sometimes, even hugging for him is a workload.
On the bright side, Croft isn’t a spender and he is an honest guy. Since he doesn’t usually go out, he would save piles of cash which could be used during an emergency. The downside to this is he misses out on all the fun in life. Besides that, he is honest in the sense that he would not pretend to like someone and he would be blunt with his cycles of friends. We all know that pretending to be nice towards someone you hate drains a lot of one’s energy so Croft doesn’t find the point to be a goody-goody two shoes, even if it means losing his friends.
Next, please meet Lucy,
Lucy is the slutty feminine personality of mine. She likes to make seductive poses, luring both men and women into her eternal embrace. Unlike Lady Gaga, Lucy is considered as a real hermaphrodite. Once the victim is within her grasp, she rarely lets them go. She loves sex and fixes her full intention on the victim. Even if it’s just a one-night-stand, Lucy will cease to stalk the victim. Then she often persuades the victim for intimacy, ignoring the victim’s personal relationship. Lucy is a persistent girl and her actions usually cause break-ups and suicides.
Without any remorse, she would seek another victim as the cycle repeats itself until all those around her end up inconsolable. You would say she’s my private concubine. Regardless of her sexual desires, Lucy could charm her victims into doing tedious chores for her. Also, the word taboo is not in her dictionary. To her, if something could attract anyone, it should be known throughout the entire population.
Anyone's hungry for him?
Tony, a plump guy, never ceases eating. His stomach is similar to that of a black hole. Everything goes in, nothing comes out. The only time you see him stops eating is sleepy time. Otherwise, food within his range would vanish in an instant. Tony believes that he has Prader-Willi syndrome which causes an eating disorder. Rarely full, he has to eat or else he believes he would starve. Some of Tony’s buddies like him since they have small stomach and Tony would usually end up cleaning their dishes.
Thus, his buddies wouldn’t feel as if they are wasting food. On the other hand, some are fed up with him as he tends to finish up delicious dishes without the consent of others. Currently, hungry Tony is slim as claimed by his friends but he used to be fat/overweight/obese. He would feel guilty after a fine meal as he knows what would happen if all those fats are not properly deposited.
In the matter of gourmet, Tony enjoys fine cuisines and exotic delicacies like escargoes and fried fat juicy worms. *Yummy*
It's the two green-eyed friends,
Reed and Ivy are fraternal twins and they seldom leave each other. Inseparable by nature, they possess all the necessities in life but they desire for more. Side by side, their need for more things, both concrete and abstract, intensifies. Once they are separated, their insatiable desire would decrease but that rarely happens.
Reed:
Ever since young, Reed has an obsessive compulsive disorder to ‘want’ everything. Without regards to a thing’s functionality, he would just want it since somebody has it. An item which he doesn’t possess would drive him mad even to the point of stealing. Reed was almost caught red-handed once for attempting to steal a friend’s gaming device. Though he never means any harm, he could not help it to acquire everything which he deems important.
As for abstract objects, he needs to experience what he had never felt before like true love, exceptionally good results and a true friend.
Ivy:
In the case of Ivy, she is an undesirable girl. Like her brother, she wants everything which is not in her inventory. Unlike her brother, she would harm those who are in her way of her desire. With a pair of green eyes, Ivy is a smart girl with ambitious desire but those who are more superior earn her jealousy. She wants to be the top of everything and be the first to achieve something. Academically, she constantly vies for the best achiever and would rant if her desires are not met.
Moreover, she tends to be envious of her friends, especially those who manage to travel to foreign countries for studies or bag-packing. Ivy is a typical green-eyed monster. Even so, she is a good example of a person full of perseverance and determination but her jealousy often keeps her friend roster low. Contrary to what others believe, she is just a solemn girl seeking attention from others by being the best of everything.
And his name is Ang,
Ang is sort of a personal bodyguard of mine. Although his size is small, he has the temper of a lion. Usually on vacation, Ang seldom shows up to protect me but when he does, volcanoes will erupt and riots will rise. However, his anger isn’t always about feuds. Relationship issues such as cheating on your partner pumps his gas tank for a ride of torment on the cheaters. His retaliation need not be physical.
Normally, he prefers psychological methods which would drive the victims to the brink of insanity if it’s ever that serious. As for friends, Ang hates people making idiotic posts regarding rants. If friend rivalry ever rises, Ang is more than happy to watch the drama. However, if those people are his closed buddies, Ang would probably do something stupid and yell at them to MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE!!!
An ill-tempered person, Ang doesn’t have many friends and his family members tend to avoid him but sometimes his anger reflects his love towards his loved ones. Whenever they are in danger, he would be there to save them as he is all fuelled up to conquer anything. Bloodshed, on the other hand, is another issue.
Lastly, a personal friend of mine,
Pryde acts as an advisor to me and he is quite intelligent in the sense that he will not hesitate to grasp a perfect opportunity to suit his life. Bounded by curiosity, Pryde never ceases to seek knowledge, both beneficial and detrimental to his social status. Through either books or gossips, Pryde will demonstrate the knowledge he possesses to his peers. The only reward he yearns is their amazement and jealousy. If his peers perceive something which he does not know, he would seek more information regarding the topic with full efforts.
Pryde is proud of the knowledge he possesses within his cache. Wikipedia and Google are some of his tools to gain substantial knowledge. Pryde would not hesitate to flaunt his superiority and doesn’t show pity to those who are below him. No empathy is found within him as he hates helping his friends with tedious works.
Pryde is often a loner but he is contented with his success. Money is not his main priority as it does not make one superior. Money is merely a tool which could be wasted in a day. Knowledge and experiences, on the other hand, must require personal diligence to seek them. As everyone slowly succumbed to the stupidity of life, Pryde would take this opportunity to educate himself. So, in the pending future, he would be far superior than anyone in the world.
Although these 'friends' of mine consist of more downs than ups, they are the fundamental elements of me. Without them, I doubt I would still be alive alone here. Hence, even with their flaws, I'm glad to meet them for they represent what I am.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Show Me Your Teeth
Friday, February 18, 2011
And the Award Goes to Natalie Portman!!!
Ms Portman is on the move in the filming industry. Ever since the release of Black Swan, she has become the renowned star she was back in the days of Star Wars. Moreover, she will be featured in 3 more movies this year - No Strings Attached, Your Highness and most of all, the ever popular, most anticipating movie (for a geek like me XP)
Prologue:
First of all, I'm going to discuss about Black Swan. I know the movie was released last year but as your all know, Malaysia ain't no America. The movie was only released this week in the cinema. Even so, I don't bother watching it in the theaters for major scenes such as Portman's masturbation and the lesbian kissing scenes would definitely be cut out XP
Hey, I'm gay but those scenes are amazing which kinda makes me a bi...I'm sexually confused.
Regardless, the movie is superb! Bloggers like Vincent even featured about it. Natalie was nominated and won several awards for that movie. It has everything to do with the fragililty of the human mind and how easily it can be influenced by external forces. This would be an awesome case study for me when I'm a certified psychologist...hehe
Basically, Portman's character suffers a mental breakdown from the pressure exerted from her mother and her work as a ballet dance. The whole plot is poetic in conjunction with swan lake in which a virtuous princess is transformed into a sensual swan. (Go read the story on your own) There are several versions of the story btw.
Overall, the movie is one of the must watch movie of the century, right next to The Dark Knight. I would give it a 4.5 out of 5. It's nearly flawless.
Climax:
Yesterday, me and my friends randomly chose to watch No Strings Attached. Coincidently, Ms Portman is in it again. I'm dazed by her beauty.
In this movie, she's a doctor seeking sex with Adam (Aston Kutcher) while leaving no strings attached because to her, having a relationship might be complicated to handle. Well, this is a typical romantic film meant for couples. I repeat, it is meant for COUPLES. Me and my friends (2 of them) felt awkward watching it with just us guys with no partner to hug and go "awww~" throughout the movie. Kinda sad~
However, the movie was so-so only. Natalie sort of portrays too much emotions here and the movie was kinda plain. It is hilarious with some of its scenes.
Hence, I would give it a 3.5 out of 5
Epilogue:
Her pending movies for this coming few months would be a comedy by the title Your Highness and the action-packed . While I don't have much detail on the former, I am excited about the latter. Below is trailer no.2 for Thor. Hope you guys enjoy it. I know I myself and my lecturer did XD
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Leaders in the Making
See, that's my Id talking. lolx
Peace out for now
Sunday, February 13, 2011
A Note for You
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Marvel Update!!!
3 years of Weird CNY
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
~hoP~hOp~Hop~
Monday, February 7, 2011
Researching on A Research
To start off this post, I think I'm going mad. I don't have enough time for my blog; I can't even have fun with my friends due to my constant worrying over my research due date; heck, I decided to stay back in my hostel for Chinese New Year because of the report (and the fact that I also wanted to ignore my family's nagging but let's not talk about that) =P
Anyway, earlier January this year, my English lecturer bestow me and my coursemates a gift of knowledge. We have to do a freaking 30page research report of any topic we desire. At first, I thought this task should be a new challenge I'm willing to face but after the torturing weeks of processing this report, I think otherwise.
I have chosen Angkor as my research topic. So, I must discuss what causes the downfall of the great Khmer City! As fun as that sounds(seriously, it's fun. I'm a typical Indian Jones freak), I need a longer period of doing this assignment. A month and a half ain't enough for me to construct this report into a perfect origami.
There is a benefit to this somewhere. I can tell you who built the Angkor Wat and where did they film the Tomb Raider movie. Oh oh, I can provide several reasons as to Angkor's downfall. God knows why Khmer history is so complicated~
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
More Geekloads
Besides the usual Lego in the box, there's also a video game for the latest franchise. Here's a teaser video for it.
The Lego Sparrow will shipwreck to stores, most likely in conjunction with the new Pirates movie. Yes, they are still making another one. This time the main villain is, no, not Will Turner as Davy Jones, but the infamous Blackbeard, a real life pirate.
Speaking of shipwrecks, Lara Croft, the tomb raiding hottie, also has another game installment but from what I heard, they reboot the whole series...again. *sigh*
Anyway, the new game would detail her first exploration as a tomb raider. The details are scarce but I do know that she is shipwrecked on one of the islands in the Japanese archipelago. This is her new look and she supposed to be 21 or sth.
Here's a bunch of other photos of hers...in a cave...exploring...lolx
Now, regarding the story. From what my speculation, judging by the images above, it might have something to do with Amaterasu, the Shinto sun goddess and her brother Susanoo, the Shinto god of the wind and storm. As myth the goes, Susanoo brought darkness over the world and the petrified Amaterasu hid herself inside a cave. Since she is the Sun goddess, the world plunged into eternal darkness. The other deities had tried every possible way to coerce to goddess out but she rejected them all. One goddess, Amenouzume, hatched an idea and decided to perform a silly dance in front of the other male gods. They laughed hysterically and this attracted Amaterasu's curiosity. So, she tried to come out of her cave as subtle as possible. Unbeknownst to her, Amenouzume placed a mirror right in front of her cave. Seeing the beautiful lady in the reflection (her herself), she then chose not to hide anymore and forever shines in the sky. Narcissist right?
Well, one of the image shone what seems to be a person with a sun behind him/her. That's my guess anyway.
Until the latest game debut, we will never know...lolx